Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Snap

I haven't been feeling like posting. So many things have been going on with me/us. Some good and some has been a bit frightening. But everything has turned out fine. This post may to some seem too personal but that is what this blogging thing sometimes is for me. So if you don't want to hear it ......then wait until I post again :0 .......whenever that may be.
I finally got caught up on some health tests and exams. One was for a pain on my right side. Which after an ultrasound they found nothing on the right but a cyst on the left but they seem to think it is the type which will go away. FINE. But what the hell is wrong with my right side!!!!They have no idea.
Girls, I finally had my first mammogram. Late because of my need to have children into my 40's. So you all know the drill they tell you before you start that there is always a chance to need to come in and get additional pics since they are trying to find your "baseline". So I have known people who that has happened to and I was prepared when the call came and they said I needed to get back in and have some more pics. What I wasn't prepared for is when I went back the paperwork they handed me said "urgent spot compression needed" "abnormal right breast". So after I read that I calmed down and told myself that they probably have to code it that way to get insurance to cover it. Then when I was with the mammographer she told me that I will be meeting with the radiologist right after the additional pics so that I know what I needed to do. I was like "I never get to talk to a radiologist for anything right away". Even if you are a pregnant bitch and want results from your ultrasound they won't talk to you. I did start to panick. I also started a support plan right away. I started ticking through my mind everyone I knew who has battled breast cancer and figured out who I would call first for support. Everyone on the list was someone I adore and knew that they would have great wisdom for me. I had no cell phone and I just sat silently with my thoughts. I forced the tears back because I told myself that they did not give me any real details and so really it could be nothing. The radioligist came in and said that the previous pics showed a rather large mass but with the new compression pics (which is code for make her boob a pancake) the mass flattens and moves too so it is nothing and just have another mammo next year. So I was happy to get home and just let my emotions go and let some tears out. What a bunch of crap!
Gave blood and hear is a surprise high cholesterol. I can't beleive that all my McDonald runs are letting me down. So better choices are needed to be made. I have done it before so I can do it again. I have been having a reaction to my blood pressure meds. A dry cough at night which is very common and tingly hands and feet. I quit taking the meds and after 5 days the symptoms started to go away. Imagine that. You know I talked to the Dr. in April and he shrugged me off. So new meds. But these are making me very fatigued. I have to give them some time.
I also need to mention that while putting the groceries away in the pantry in my bare feet a can of spagetti "o's" fell on the top of my foot. I limped around for about 10 days until I went in and had ....yes another x-ray. So I now have a fracture on the top of my foot near my big toe. Which they can't do anything for. Can you say arthritis when I am 60? That, with the fractured toe from 4 years ago and the sprain from last December and the pain in my foot from the accident 12 years ago makes my feet gonners! I miss the days when I was tough. Falling off horses and water ski and jet ski crashes. Lets move on.
Max has one of his good friends, Caleb moving in to the house across the street. He is very excited and so are they. Wait until they get a taste of the real Gellners :) I hope they are ready!
I am not holding back anymore. It is the 4th family to live there. They can take us or leave us.
Cooper is getting a little nervous about Kindergarten and mostly the bus ride. They give the kids plenty of time to adjust so I know he will be o.k. He is such a crack up. Free spirit. Skinny dipping and making "baby belugas" in the water.
Last night we were watching Blue Planet and a sea creature came on the screen that none of us had ever seen before. So we kind of all said "what is THAT called?" And right on the money and clear as day Wyatt said "that is a FA, FA, BING-EE". We all asked him to say it again and he did just like the first time. We still can't stop laughing. The creature was bizarre looking.
Barry has been working hard of course. We have pumpkins forming. He dug up some potatoes and is always keeping our pool and hot tub up and running. He also took the boys fishing the other day. No fish but they had fun.
Visits from Uncle Bry, Spencer and Ruby. Ruby and I went and got pedicures. It was fun to be away from the boys and we are planning on doing it again. We all commented how Barry was counting what exactly that was going to cost him :)
Jacob and Ava's Aunt Maryann came for a quick stop. She had never been here and it was nice to show her our simple (boring to some) life.
We have way too many tomatoes. The cucumbers are bigger than I like. I am making a note that I want to be more selective on seeds next year. I will need to post some veggie pics soon. Barry changed the picture process on the computer. I have to learn how to hook up some skookum whatcha macallit device to get pictures. Frankly I have not the patience.
20 days until the kids go back to school. Mixed feelings about that. But I am going to join one of those smaller gyms so that I can use some equipment that will be easier on my feet and joints then my treadmill.
Fair week is Aug. 25th. My dear sis will be in town for an interview. And Barry said we can go by ourselves for a little while so we can see some horses and I can check out the flowers and veggies. All the kids every want to do is go on rides. I may just take them on another day.
And for the GRAND FINALLE......The carpet for the family room will be installed on
August 24th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So now I need to get painting again :(
All for now. Isn't that enough!

6 comments:

Jamie S said...

Hey Rocky! I'm sorry you've been having a time. Hopefully things get better soon for you! Thinking of you!

Anonymous said...

Rocky! I am so sorry about your mammogram issues. I don't know if it will make you feel better, but they do the same thing with the radiologist everytime. They take me back for the pancake scans and then they like to do ultrasounds too. It is more fun than I can usually handle in one day. I am so relieved to hear that they didn't find anything to worry about.

Take good care of yourself, okay!!

rocky said...

I am so blessed to have such great friends that even though I haven't seen seems like forever, you still have such kind words. Leah, you were one of the first women I thought of in those moments. You brought me comfort!!!!! See ya soon!

Doug and Pam said...

Okay, WOW, wished I'd had known you were having such a rough time would have taken you out for a few glasses (bottles) of wine. We'll still do that.

rocky said...

When!!!!!! I can't wait to see you guys. My sis will be here during fair week so I hope the four of us can hook up then. Auntie Niki can babysit!!!

Anonymous said...

Good to hear from you, Rocky. I have certainly missed reading your blog.
What do you mean you have been missing out on all the fun of having your boobs smashed each year! And as far as your foot problems, maybe it is Gods way of making sure you take things a little easier.